A type of quote people used to say
A kind of agreement to it
A insecure feeling
A messy life
A happiness that will never come back

A life that never seem to go away
A choice that seems to bring about
A same outcome that will never go away
A road with no U-turns

A life, a happiness
A feeling, a family
That cannot be given up

Suddenly have the feeling to pen down some of the thoughts that I have been accumulating. Nothing special la, just that nothing to update when there are people complaining of the dusts accumulating here. haha.

really don't know wat to update.

saw this somewhere else
"mix feelings.. up and down.. flash backs.. bring mi back..
mayb i am just one who DON'T need it, this is mi... i dun need it.. yes, i can."

nothing special about it. haha :)

stepped out... moving on... new chapter... new stage... learning... hoping...

these are my "updated" for this past 1 week plus.. haha.. short and sweet... sometimes it just take a step to change your story :) wat i am saying is that you got to move forward so that you know what is going to happen in the next chapter of your story.

so jia you ba... physically and mentally supporting you. jia you! :)

every family has its own story...

last week was another busy week... it had marked the end of a story... a life story of my grandpa... though wasn't really close to him since young, i could still feel a little sad to lose him... but nevermind, as long as he is happy up in the far far away land, i will be happy for him too...

The past one week has made me think alot... see alot... feel alot... sometime i just feel like putting down everything and live in a world of my own... just mi in it... i just wanna have peace, quiet moments... just like wat i am having now, alone in the study room when everyone is aslp... people think that i am really a loner... or even ask mi, "why u dun feel bored de meh?"... mayb this is just mi... away from this confusing world...

Fairy tales are always beautiful
So perfect that I fall into in
Reality is still reality
It is never so perfect

Dishearted, disappointed or saddened
Feelings that have filled my life
Too native, always looking for excuses
To bring myself out of the world I hate

Waken up to face the reality
To face the facts that can never be changed
The imperfect world that I am in
Nothing can be done

Forget about these things
Remember only wat you think is worth
Move forward at your own pace
A smile everyday makes life a better one.

just another start of my rubbish... afterall a family is a family, i cannot change anything... i can only take it... accept it... and hope for the best :)

*closed eyes to make wish* [secret ;P]
hopefully my wish will come true one day...

things change, people come and go... life goes on...

the impression is fading
or is my memory failing
sitting alone in the study room
without any memory of his look.

he was always quiet sitting in the living room
the wrinkles on his face makes him look old
never in my life have i seen his anger
though they always mention it

after the arrival of the unwelcome "enemy"
the wrinkles makes him look even older
days after days weeks after weeks months after months
he grew weaker and weaker

the simile on his face
to response to our greetings
the view of him from the back as he leaves
make him look smaller and smaller

so close yet so far
he carried me when i was a baby
but the feeling had faded
he was never closed to my heart

but he is still who he is
someone who is related to me
someone who doted me before
though for a short while.

hope he left with a happy heart
hope he left to a peaceful place
unlike life in the past
goodbye for last